Thursday, January 17, 2013

Soiling Certainty

"All generalizations are false, including this one."
- Mark Twain

There's a potentially dangerous beast lurking among us. It often disguises itself as Fact, and quite easily slips past even the most astute and defensive observer. In fact, this monster is so subversive it's currently spawning in every household, inflicting every parent, and consequently every child the world over.

Today I came face to face with this seething, certainty-breeding giant, witnessing firsthand its potential for harm. To make matters worse, I happen to know that it dwells deep in all of our minds. It's even right here, in my writing, in the last sentence. It can't be escaped. That's right, I'm talking about Generalization.

My first period class is called Current Topics in Science. The focus of the course is to arrive at a better understanding of what constitutes (and does not constitute) science, and how our lives are influenced by science in myriad ways. There are only five students enrolled, but our conversations are some of the most inventive and exploratory in which I've ever participated.

Over the past few days we've been discussing some of the philosophical origins of science. In particular, we've discussed David Hume's famous problem of induction, and Sir Karl Popper's defining criterion of science as lying in its capacity to disprove or falsify hypotheses.

Learning about these philosophies shines a light on the many problematic "all" or "every" statements that surround us. Scientific thinking, in theory, teaches us to be aware of the doubt in many of our conjectures.

Of course, in popular culture we don't often practice scientific thinking, and we are often too certain about what we claim to know. To find examples, one need only peruse the comments on any number of news websites. They are full of the unchecked assumptions and hazardous conviction espoused with Generalization. Instead of pursuing respectful dialogue with a sense of caution and a will to listen and learn, both sides of an issue seem to further cement their respective stance on the issue, becoming more isolated and further polarized. If we're not careful, generalizations can make us make enemy-types of one another.

We could never do away with our capacity to generalize. And I don't think we want to. The philosopher Hegel suggested that generalization underscores the process of thinking. We don't have to kill the beast. We just need to learn about it so that we may tame it, and come to live peacefully with it. Like an exotic pet.

As a homework assignment in out CTS class, I invited students to find several articles in the science news section of the local paper, or on the Internet. Their task was to scrutinize the evidence presented in the popular media, and to think about ways to test the evidence in their own experiments.

As we discussed our findings the conversation flowed wonderfully; the students bought into the process. There were a lot of brilliant ideas being discussed, and a lot of creative thought experiments. Then, and I'm not sure how it came about exactly, but somehow Generalization reared its ugly head, taking one of the students hostage.

One student raised her hand in response to another. I don't even remember the context. But I remember what she said: "All gays are girly sinners. I just try to stay away from anyone I can tell is gay."

Somehow this usually sweet student found her tongue dripping with spite. My heart endured a hairline fracture as she sat back in her chair, proud and sure, grinning from ear to ear. She couldn't have known that her words were so cutting, not with the smile she sported. It was so pure.

I didn't even have time to take up my negotiating post. The others in the class swooped in to collect our hostage from Generalization's tranquilizing grip.

"Hey! You can't say that!" piped one fellow at the side of the class. "You can't generalize people like that. And how is someone else's sexuality going to harm you?" His voice was growing flammable.

"He's right," chimed in another girl, "you're being unfair. And tell me what it means to be 'girly'? Don't you realize you've just made and 'all' statement." My heart smiled softly.

The girl who made the comment looked sheepish. "I guess I did." She mumbled, recoiling a bit from the outbursts of her peers.

For the rest of class we discussed the labels we create for one another, and the judgments we associate with those labels, both positive AND negative. We talked about considering one another as a fellow human being before anything else be it "gay", or "black", or "Christian". I suggested that being able to question the assumptions that anchor our labels is an act of courage, because it means you might have to admit you're wrong. And doing so regularly means getting comfortable with being wrong. I shared my opinion that perhaps this is a small price to pay if it helped us learn to get along.

The girl confessed that she hadn't really thought about what she said before she said it. She also didn't realize that her words could be hurtful.

Just before we finished the discussion, the first boy to challenge her now reached out to her. "You know, I used to think similar thoughts. I think we hear these ideas from our families and friends and society and I just always accepted these ideas until I found out that one of my best friends was gay. At first I freaked out a little, then I realized he's still the same best friend." When class finished they all left together, getting along.

It's a nice break to have the students teach themselves, defending one another from the throes of inductive reasoning.

What would this place look like if more of us recognized the dangers of our generalizations?

Wednesday, January 16, 2013

Ode to discomfort



“The truth is that our finest moments are most likely to occur when we are feeling deeply uncomfortable, unhappy, or unfulfilled. For it is only in such moments, propelled by our discomfort, that we are likely to step out of our ruts and start searching for different ways or truer answers.”


                                                                                                         - M. Scott Peck

I'm officially four and a half months into my first year of science teaching, and it's official: I'm lonely.

No, that's not a cry for help or a complaint. I'm not looking for pity. Don't send your virtual hugs. Okay, well, maybe a virtual hug is okay. 

No, I write this declaration publicly as a testament to the sense of self-security I've been strengthening this year. A year ago I did my best to keep vulnerability at bay. An ocean away from me at any given moment. In fact for most of my life I've been enveloped in self-loathing when I showed "weakness". Talk about issues.

It's a bit of a strange topic for a blog that's supposed to pursue wonder, but hear me out. 

I find it amazing. That it's taken me 28 years, and a thousands-of-miles sojourn to be comfortable with myself. And I have my loneliness to thank, for bringing it all together. 

Growth sprouts from a fertile bed of discomfort. As part of my quest to "suck the marrow out of life" I've taken to putting myself in as many uncomfortable situations as I can stomach. Trying new things for the sake of the stretch. Experiencing different ways and embracing challenging ideas in order to keep myself in check and expand my awareness. For all of the pain, and grief, and awkwardness that must be endured there is always something to gain, even if it's just another story for the grandkids. 

This year, I knew that living and teaching on my own in a new culture would give me space and contrast for my ideas. I knew it would be filled with many wonderful experiences, and unique learning opportunities. I also knew it would allow me time to focus on dealing my issues (see above). And in a sense, I knew that it was loneliness that I most wanted to meet.

It's not so much a longing, nagging, anchor on my heartstrings. It's far lighter, more like a concrete pillow, not without a firm place, but causing no real exhaustion. It really only keeps me awake when I try to sleep with it on my mind. 

No I've gotten used to my concrete pillow. I've made friends with loneliness. And irony. 

Of course, there are many people in my life, which means I'm not actually alone. And the conversations I enjoy, and memories that I visit are energizing reminders of the impossibility of total solitude. Through the magic of juxtaposition, loneliness has filled me with sense of gratitude deeper than I ever thought possible. Gratitude in solitude. It makes being lonely a whole lot lighter, and a lot less frequent. And realizing the gifts I already have has been worth all the discomfort. Kinda leaves me with a hankering for more discomfort. Does that count as mild masochism?

I've enjoyed such a rich experience so far, but I'm excited for the opportunities in the months to come. Because I know that the growth from loneliness (grownliness?) has only just begun. 

After all, admitting it is the first step. 

Tuesday, January 15, 2013

New Beginnings

I'm back! 

After a short holiday and lots of preparatory work, I have begun teaching a second semester here in Ghana. We are a little more than a week into the semester, and I'm finding a decent rhythm. Certainly I feel better adapted than I did at the beginning of September. 

At the beginning of this term I set out to create better classroom infrastructure. I have attempted to make projects more accessible, and my grading more reliable. I have also taken a page out of my old karate teaching days, and incorporated a "message of the week" into my classes. Every Monday I plan to spend about 20 minutes discussing our strengths and weaknesses with respect to various learning habits. I promise its not as patronizing as it seems. 

The students have put up a strong showing to start the semester as well. They seem better prepared for class, and are taking things with a greater degree of purpose. I don't want to speak too soon, but I have great expectations of the learning that will happen in the next two and a half months. 

Yes, things are looking more positive at school. And despite my hiatus from this Internet cloud, I have been writing expertly. Not to be confused with writing with expertise... I mean I've been writing a lot. I'm often unsure of any advice I offer, which is why I don't follow my own very often, but I stand firmly behind the practice of frequent journalling. Writing creatively, and writing crap; writing is categorically cathartic! 

With things looking up on many fronts, it wasn't until today that I felt a surge of pure excitement about this semester. After school the Magic Club of CIC Ghana had its inaugural meeting! That's right. The muggles are converting. There are approximately twenty students (half the school) who are keen to learn the ways of the wizard. I'd love to tell you what we talked about tonight, but it's a secret. 

Okay, it's not really a secret.

We did no tricks today. Instead we practiced real magic. That's right, the magic of our minds. I can hear you groaning from here.

I know that many students come to a magic club meeting with the intent to "be in on the secret". Many students don't have any desire to create magic themselves. Or maybe they do, but they don't believe they are capable of it. Many students believe magic requires dexterity, and boldness, and wit. And it does. But these things do not a magical moment make. 

Before anything else, magic requires belief. The magician must believe in his capacity to master technique and create wonder. The magician who does not believe in the magic he creates will never capture belief from an audience. 

Instead of jumping right into trickery and tomfoolery, our meeting tonight was about building self-belief. Magic is a real, visceral experience, created by and felt within, our minds. I wanted to impress upon the students the very power our beliefs have in creating reality. So we played with pendulums. 

If you've never played with a pendulum before, I encourage you to try this yourself. 

We took about 8 inches of twine, and tied a key at one end. Holding the opposite end of the string, so that the key dangled in front, I invited students to stare at the key until it became totally still. Then I asked them to imagine what it would look like if the key started to swing back and forth, on its own, without any movement of their hands. There was a pause of intense concentration, and then one by one the pendulums began to swing. Eyes widened. 

I suggested that they imagine it swinging to and fro. Then rotating in a circle. Then in the other direction. And sure enough, many of the novice necromancers found their jaws on the floor. It truly is a magical moment, to realize that your thoughts have the power to manipulate the world. 

Of course, this is not new. Our thoughts, of course, DO create the worlds we live in, by shaping our words and actions. But sometimes we lose sight of this fact, and forget about our personal telepathokinetic powers. We forget how much control we have over our thoughts, and we forget how much influence for which our thoughts count. A pendulum offers a beautiful reawakening. 

As we completed this little demonstration, the energy in the room was palpable. And I drank in what I could, and floated in the rest. Tell me that's not real magic!

Yah, it's going to be a great semester. As the pendulums demonstrate, prophecies are often self-fulfilling.

Thanks for reading.